FAT

This is just a confession..

Lately, I have been feeling so fat. I know why and don't want to analyze my eating and work out life style. I just want instant skinniest! I want to wake up and be skinny! Someone please invent a pill where I take it at night and wake up skinny in the morning..

Here are the reason I feel fat.

1. I really am..

2. I have been bored and baking a lot. Not a good combo.

3. Traveling a lot lately and eating out

4. Stopped my workout regime. I was doing it 6 days a week from January till May. Since May I have not worked and out.

5. Whenever I feel skinny I stop working out and eat like crap.. then.. I feel fat and start working out again... its a vicious cycle.

6. I give in to my sweet cravings every time.

7. I throughly enjoy food.. I need to learn to enjoy food and not indulge it.

Whenever I start to feel fat I become depressed and mean. I become unhappy and all I can think about is how fat I am. I don't like who I become when I get this fat feeling.

SO starting Monday (I am sick right now) I am going to eat super healthy. I know losing weight it 70% diet and 30% exercise. For the next month I am going to be out of town and need to really focus on my food. I am going to start my work out regime again. Mainly I need to eat healthier and less.

I am not saying this so I get tons of comments saying you are not fat. I am mainly writing this to release my emotions and motivate myself to change.

To build me up after this depressing post..

Something I love about myself: Once I make up mind to do something, I do it. When I decide I want to lose weight, I always do. I think that is why I also always gain weight. I know I can lose it again. BUT one day I will be old and not be able to lose it and its not healthy for your body to yo-yo like I do.

Jersey Wish List

This weekend we are going to New Jersey... YEAH

Here is the list of things we want to do..

1. EAT Jersey Pizza, cheesesteak, ice cream, cheese cake, fudge, popcorn and more!

2. Hot Tub

3. Go to Custard Hut

4. Bike ride on Boardwalk

5. Beach

6. PARTY with the family. I am so excited to see my nieces and nephews.

7. Try to get some sleep but probably won't..

8. Praying that my sister brings her Xbox kinect and we can dance to Michael Jackson

9. Miss our flight so we can stay longer!

P.S. I have been working out for 2 weeks just to prepare myself for this weekend trip of eating..

First

This week has been full of many first for me.

I went to Taylor Swift Concert. What more can I say!

Singing Sparks Fly.

Taylor Swift is in the purple singing Speak Now.

Singing Back to December.

Singing Our Song.

I wore hoop earrings for the first time in my life. Bryan LOVES them.

I sang in front of my ward for a talent show. I was forced. I did not want to do it and will never do it again!

Side note= I have to thank Bryan for making my week of first. I would have never gone to Taylor Swift concert or wear hoop earrings if it was not for him.

Summer Treat

I feel like within the last week summer has really begun. I don't know why. I keep thinking "Summer Time is here finally!" So to kick off our summer I decided to make a Key Lime Pie. I have never done it before and it was delicious. Everyone loved it. And it was so easy. I never knew Key lime pie was that easy. Also the recipe I made was not too tart. Here is the recipe and when you have your next party make this!

I froze my overnight. Also once you take it out of the freezer serve right away. I did not do that and I no longer had frozen key lime pie just regular key lime pie.

• 1 cup graham cracker crumbs
• 3 tablespoons white sugar
• 5 tablespoons butter, melted
• 3 eggs
• 1/2 cup key lime juice
• 1 (14 ounce) can sweetened condensed milk
• 1 pinch salt
• 1 pinch cream of tartar
• 1 cup heavy whipping cream
• 1 lime, sliced

1. Preheat oven to 325 degrees F (165 degrees C). Mix graham cracker crumbs with sugar and melted butter. Press into 9 inch pie plate and bake for 5 minutes. Remove from oven and let cool.
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3. Separate 2 of the eggs, placing the two egg whites into a mixing bowl. Reserve the yolks in another bowl.
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5. To the yolks, add one whole egg, lime juice and sweetened condensed milk. Whisk until smooth. With clean mixer blades or a whisk attachment, beat the egg whites with salt and cream of tartar until stiff, but not dry. Fold whites into filling mixture. Pour filling into partially baked crust.
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7. Bake in preheated 325 degrees F (165 degrees C) for 10 to 15 minutes or until set. Let cool at room temperature, then freeze 4 hours to overnight. Just before serving, whip cream with 2 tablespoon of sugar to form stiff peaks. A Serve decorated with whipped cream and lim e slices.

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HOME!

This week Bryan and I got a notice saying our rent was going up. We were not surprised but believe we have the worse location in the complex and they could not raise it! We live next to the gate on a busy highway. What more can I say!

Even though our rent went up we did not want to drive around for days looking at tons of apartments and homes. I really did not want to move into an "apartment feel" place. We live in a town home now and like the "homey" feeling. Bryan just told me to get over it!

On Friday, (Bryan had school off) we went to breakfast and decided to drive along this one road we like. They have a few rental properties and though we would look at 2 or 3 of them. We were driving and I told Bryan just go to Camden Apartments. I have been there before and knew they were comparable to where we live now.

We walked in and saw that they only had one design of a three bedroom town home. It was exactly like ours but only a few dollars less. For the money its was not worth the move. A few dollars less, smaller square footage, no way! BUT they did have a three bedroom DETACHED garage on the third floor for a ridiculous price. Bryan and I almost fell off our chairs, it was so cheap.

We left saying we will think about it. I got home and instantly hated where I lived. Knowing that I could get pretty much what I have now (the new place is about 100 square feet smaller) for 500$ less I was why am I living here? So I told Bryan this is a deal and I don't think its going to last long and I think we should take it.

Two hours later we were back at the new complex signing papers and giving them a deposit. I felt good the whole time and was actually excited.

BUT then we got home and I started to panic. I was like our current place is awesome, bigger, more closets, and a town home. Why am I leaving? I thought we would live here for 4 years. I seriously thought we made a mistake. Then, Bryan looks at me and says Janelle we are saving so much money we can do so many more fun things instead of being house broke! I knew he was right. I want to do so many things here but our budget does not allow it. Now with our rent being so much cheaper we can do so much more! That makes moving 2 miles down the street worth it!

Last night my dream was about how I was going to decorate the place.

Garden

I have always wanted a garden. One of the big reason why I wanted to buy a house in Florida so I could have a huge garden. BUT, I was so scared to actually start one. I was nervous I would kill my plants and that would mean I have no motherly instincts...weird I know.

BUT, when my mom was in town we went to home depot and bought planter boxes, soil and herbs. I have basil(from my mother-in-law), mint, cilantro, and parsley. I chose those herbs because they are the ones I use most. I was so excited. We set up the planters and put them on my deck. Ever since I check on them daily, water them daily and make sure they are growing properly. I feel like a very good mother to them. Now, I want to get a tomato and peppers plants!

I started my count down to...

Most of my friends know that I am OBSESSED with Taylor Swift. I think I have listened to her new CD everyday since it came out in October. I am going to her Concert on June 2 and I am SO EXCITED. Bryan gave that to me as my birthday present and I have been giddy ever since. So its official- I have started my count down to Taylor Swift Concert!!

22 Days and counting...

Now All I need is my Taylor Swift T-shirt!!