FAT

This is just a confession..

Lately, I have been feeling so fat. I know why and don't want to analyze my eating and work out life style. I just want instant skinniest! I want to wake up and be skinny! Someone please invent a pill where I take it at night and wake up skinny in the morning..

Here are the reason I feel fat.

1. I really am..

2. I have been bored and baking a lot. Not a good combo.

3. Traveling a lot lately and eating out

4. Stopped my workout regime. I was doing it 6 days a week from January till May. Since May I have not worked and out.

5. Whenever I feel skinny I stop working out and eat like crap.. then.. I feel fat and start working out again... its a vicious cycle.

6. I give in to my sweet cravings every time.

7. I throughly enjoy food.. I need to learn to enjoy food and not indulge it.

Whenever I start to feel fat I become depressed and mean. I become unhappy and all I can think about is how fat I am. I don't like who I become when I get this fat feeling.

SO starting Monday (I am sick right now) I am going to eat super healthy. I know losing weight it 70% diet and 30% exercise. For the next month I am going to be out of town and need to really focus on my food. I am going to start my work out regime again. Mainly I need to eat healthier and less.

I am not saying this so I get tons of comments saying you are not fat. I am mainly writing this to release my emotions and motivate myself to change.

To build me up after this depressing post..

Something I love about myself: Once I make up mind to do something, I do it. When I decide I want to lose weight, I always do. I think that is why I also always gain weight. I know I can lose it again. BUT one day I will be old and not be able to lose it and its not healthy for your body to yo-yo like I do.

Jersey Wish List

This weekend we are going to New Jersey... YEAH

Here is the list of things we want to do..

1. EAT Jersey Pizza, cheesesteak, ice cream, cheese cake, fudge, popcorn and more!

2. Hot Tub

3. Go to Custard Hut

4. Bike ride on Boardwalk

5. Beach

6. PARTY with the family. I am so excited to see my nieces and nephews.

7. Try to get some sleep but probably won't..

8. Praying that my sister brings her Xbox kinect and we can dance to Michael Jackson

9. Miss our flight so we can stay longer!

P.S. I have been working out for 2 weeks just to prepare myself for this weekend trip of eating..

First

This week has been full of many first for me.

I went to Taylor Swift Concert. What more can I say!

Singing Sparks Fly.

Taylor Swift is in the purple singing Speak Now.

Singing Back to December.

Singing Our Song.

I wore hoop earrings for the first time in my life. Bryan LOVES them.

I sang in front of my ward for a talent show. I was forced. I did not want to do it and will never do it again!

Side note= I have to thank Bryan for making my week of first. I would have never gone to Taylor Swift concert or wear hoop earrings if it was not for him.